Today I had my first basketball game in almost three years. I really hadn't trained so I didn't now what to expect. According to the coach I played really well. I ran the hole game, now I am really tierd. RIght know I am sitting in my couch watching television and hoping for something to eat. Tomorrow I leave for Miami and I couldn't be more happy.
Juan Martin Del Potro
Rafael Nadal
So I couldn't be sadder! Juan Martin Del Potro isn't attending the Sony Ericsson Open, due to a wrist injury. I know I have already talked about these, but I am still in shock. I mean for one thing I was waiting to be able to see him again this year for months now. After the press realizes that he wouldn't be attending Indian Wells I was hoping that he would be ok for Miami. It was basically the reason I was looking forward to go to the tournament. Know I am looking forward to seeing Rafael Nadal, a Spanish player that is currently the fourth in the ATP. Though like Del Potro he hasn't had a good beginning of the year. They have both been injured in most of the tournaments. Nadal uses to be number two of the ATP before this year's injuries.
So lately everything that seems to come up randomly in my mind has to do with blogs. Normally I am seating there without anything to and bam out of the blue I get an idea of something to write about in my blog. The bad part of all this is that I end up forgetting, like today I remember I had a great idea.... but I seem to have forgotten what that idea was. So right know all I can think about is my trip to Miami in a couple of days because I do need an urgent break from school. What I am really not happy about is the fact that Del Potro my favorite tennis player won't be attending the Sony Ericsson Open because he has a wrist injury, just like me. Anyways Spring Break is on its way and I am really excited to leave Bogotá.
So during winter I read another book by Nicholas Sparks....called Dear John. I mean this book is the ultimate best love story. If I wanted to have a love story I would picture it just like that. Expect that I would leave out the ending. Now a movie came out based on the book. So I have been waiting for almost three months for it to come out here at Bogota. But I just couldn't wait, because then I would have to wait for two movies Dear John and The Last Song. So I searched for it and found it. I am actually watching it right now, so far it is nothing like the book since they changed a lot of things. Like Alan is not Tim's brother in the movie he is his son. I really need to work on my spelling and grammar. I really don't know what is their too change since it takes me a long time to realize the mistakes I am making. I hope that after all the time I am blogging one of the things that imporove are my spelling and grammar. I hope Dear John ends up looking more like the book as I am finishing it.
When you feel like you are no longer important what should you do? Well I have been thinking about that a lot lately but I am really not sure why. But I don't really have a lot to say about that right know.....expect that oh! yeah I finished the book I mentioned the other day. The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks it had an unexpected ending. But of course I won't tell you, if you are interested on knowing the end you should buy it. Well I am actually bored my day hasn't been so eventful today. I really don't like those days where it feels like nothing is happening around you. Today I hope to start another book by Nicholas Sparks named At First Sight.
So today I was playing baseball at physical education. For some reason I never really noticed when the ball was coming. So when I was running to third base and about to be safe a ball came right into my face. After an hour of feeling dizzy and having an intense headache I went to the nurse. She told me if I continued to feel like that to tell my parents. So after going over to a friends house and almost sleeping my way threw it my mom decided I needed to go to the doctor. So I went still really dizzy and with a horrible headeche. Right now I am laying down in my bed because the doctor said it would be the best thing to do. Lucly the headache has gotten better. It was just a reaction I got from the many headaches I normally have. I hope I am not hit by anything anymore because I should really start to pay attention to all those thing that happened around me.
So a couple of days ago I started to read a book called The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks. I actually ordered most of his books because I love the way he writes. He has these way of showing you love and how it tens to turn out the total opposite way you would expect it. Like I mentioned before its nothing I do believe in but i personally admire how he is so good at making you believe that everything will turn out fine. I can't wait to finish the book and find out what ends up happening. So today I decided not to talk about the breakdown's I've been having lately because it does me no good and wont help the situation change. I am sure the book will end up having these end that I had never expected to happen.
Why does everything have to end in someone being a bad friend? I am simply tierd of being backstabed. I really don't know what I do wrong....I mean am I that bad? I am not sure why but I always end up finding out that someone is saying bad thing about it. Should I change for it to stop? Or should I just ignore it? What are the real reasons why all these ends up happening to me? Who is the worst friend, the one who backstabbed you or the one who covered the backstabbing from you? Does that mean this person is backstabbing you? I am not sure why but I always much rather hear someone tell me what they don't like about me. Not me finding out threw other people. I am still really confused and lost. I don't know what to...if to forgive and forget or just not talk to this people that I feel so hurt about right know. Well I should have a lot of time to think and make a decision that I consider to be the best. The one that will allow me to be happy and full of trust all over again.
So today after months and moths of pretending to be happy and fine with everything that was going on around me I broke down. After months of not shedding one tear I finally did. I did because I don't know if I am the problem or everyone else is. I am not sure if I am the one to blame for all these things I feel right now. I don't really know what do now, should I keep pretending? should I make myself believe that everything is ok and i will be ok. Or should I try to solve try to see if I am the problem like I believe I am. At the moment I am really confused all I want to do is figure out a way to solve the way I am feeling right now. When I found myself about to break down today, and found no one to talk to that's when I realized I had no idea why I am like I am today. I am someone that has always lacked of trust to those surrounding me. I am that person that is never sure if she is being backstabbed or no. I am also that one that need to constantly ask a person to keep a secret for me, because I am always scared they will tell just the person I didn't want to find out about it. Know I am here in my house still thinking is it me? Because if it is then I need to find a way to fix it. To feel conftrable again.
Life is all about ups and downs. One day everything is good, you're happy and liking the way things turn out to be in your life. The other day it's like nothing that happened the day before matters and that day is the worse day you could imagine. Like for example today my day turned out to be great and just began to be crapy. I am standing here thinking about how such a good day could turn out like this. But that is life their is always something that most defiantly will ruin your day. But well I hope as it comes into an end it will go back to normal and the great event that started my day will help me end it.
Today I went to visit a foundation to do social service for a PDR proyect. Personally I liked the place and was really intrested by the work we could there. But everytime I go to this places it makes me feel how lucky I am to be able to live the life I am living. Today we also had a subistitute in photography, which I hate. I dont hate her but the fact that we have a subsitute because we cant work. I hope next class he is their so that I can work on my photos.
So I really haven't written in a long time. Right know I am watching the Oscars right now. Some of the dresses that come out are really pretty, others I don't really like. So Thursday i went to the Coldplay concert and I absolutely loved it. I had so much fun, I loved all of the songs. The effects were simply amazing. This weekend i didn't really do anything. Now I am just laying down in my bed because tonight is oscars night
Friendship is something that always ends. When a funner person comes around that's when you are forgotten and no matter all the promises that person made to you about always being friends they leave, move on and forget. Even though you were there for them even before their new friend came around. I don't know why but these always seems to happen to me. Maybe it is that i am not fun, I don't listen well enough or like always the new person is better than me. My dad always told me that their is always someone better than you out there. I still don't understand then why cant these people value the times I was there. Why cant they just stick around. I guess maybe that is life because all the friends that I have ever had into my life left and forgot about me finding friends that are always way better than me.
Well their is always some kind of difference between reality and what you expect to happen. I really always expect the guy I like will just randomly walk up to me one day and asks me out. These rarely happens normally the guy is your friend or walks past you without even looking your way. Also when you want to meet someone you would hope for them to instantly now make everything easier and be them who talks to you not to them. Their is many thing you expect to happen but they never really do. Its always you that in the end need to take action. It needs to be you that goes up and talks to him. Obviously if you ever really get the courage to do so. I for example would never work up the courage to go up and talk to the guy I think is so hot and I look at walking by at school. Sometimes I wish all those thing that were what we expect to happen will happen. Like tomorrow when I go to school he just comes up say hi and we get into a conversation. But what is really interesting about all these hot guys that walk around in school? Well they are that interesting because you don't really know them, maybe they are really nice or maybe they are just these really high ego guys that you just end up hating. Lets wish that just one of these day reality will be just like you expect to be.
So today we have no school. It was all because their is some kind of strike going on about transportation. I am really happy because I could really use some more sleep. Lately i haven't been able to its like i am always really tired but I haven't been able to sleep. So well right now I got to the point where I can't sleep anymore. So later on I am going over to a friends house to make cookies. So lets hope it is fun and after I get really tierd so that I can have a good night sleep.
I am really still not sure what to write about it, since after a few days of writing it always makes me think what should I write about these time in my blog. Lately since I read Gilgamesh and started English I started to think about these questions Mr. Tangen tries for us to figure out the point in life. In some ways these books we have been reading answer those questions. Those that everyone asks themselves. Well that's about it for today since I still can't get any good ideas on what to write about.
